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Happy New Year + Indecision
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Happy New Year! And hooray for the year of the Ox!Though much time has passed, nothing much has happened in my boring, home-bound life. I have offered my services as a seamstress for self-employed work with little customers. But that's not what I want to write about. What I want to write about is Talents.
I possess many talent/gifts from sewing to crochet, knitting, tatting, to cooking, to writing to drawing and painting and more. However, I'm often plagued with indecision. I have noted that when I don't use a talent for a while, it deteriorates and weakens. Then when I go to use it once more, I am saddened at the sorry state it is in. I want to exercise and strengthen all my talents to prevent their loss, however, reality kicks in with a violent tantrum, stating that there is not enough time in the world nor energy in my body to possibly do such a task. And my mind is burdened with the plague of indecision. I want to keep all the wonderful gifts that the universe has bestowed upon me. Yet, how can I possibly find enough time in my day to day life to develop and keep them all strong?
For example: I've not exercised my gift for drawing, and it's dwindled down to something that really saddens me, because I know of what I could do before. The indecision is, do I put my other gifts on hold to work on this particular gift, or do I abandon it?
I want to work on all my gifts at regular intervals, like one would work all their muscle groups to keep tone and strong. Yet, how can I do that. There is an answer staring me straight in the face, I just know it, yet fatigue is making it very difficult to discern the details of the said answer.
Whatever. I had something similiar to this typed, which was much more expressive and powerful concerning the word selection, however, an odd event transpired that erased everything. *irrate*
I intend to go to some college courses to beef up my seamstress skills, being most of them are self taught. I learned the basics from my mother and grandmother. but in this world, that isn't enough. I hope to find the money to go to the said courses. I've applied for FAFSA, and I'm awaiting a response.
Someday, I'll have it figured out where I can exercise all my talents regularly, even if it is only a little at a time.
My brother comes home from his LDS mission in March. I'm excited for his return! I know that he's changed so much in the past several months, nearly two years. I can sense it, and quite often strange dreams remind me of his past behavior, and I know that it is not him, and that is not the way he acts today. I love missionaries.
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